Friday, June 17, 2011

Alay kay Itay

When I was in kinder you were the ones who fetch me after my class and I can’t forget the first time you scolded me when we were on our way home since my teacher told you that I punch my classmate during the recess time. I was so mad at you then to the point that I did not go out to my room for dinner and throw all my pillows then you knocked in my room telling me that I should prepare because we will be having our dinner at Jollibee so, what I felt easily vanished because of it (silly girl!). After our dinner Mama talked to me and let me promised that I won’t do it again and so I did (since Mama told me that you are so disappointed because on what I did). When I was in elementary and until in my high school you were still the one who fetch me even though I told you that I can manage to go home by myself. Ever since I was young you always makes me feel that I am special and that I can always do it but I never heard you complimenting me for a job well done may it on my studies or on my sport but instead you’ll be telling me that the compliments that I am having won’t matter but it’s a matter of how you do it in achieving what you have. I used to cry every time you reprimand me on the things that I am doing and the things I wanted to have, but every time you see me crying you will immediately approached me and tell me that you will treat me and Mom to Jollibee or often you will give Mom the money so I would have what I wanted to buy. I used to think that you didn’t appreciate what I am doing but to my surprise during my commencement day you hugged me tight and told me how proud you are and thankful having me as your daughter and I really appreciate it pa. Ever since before you really made me feel that I am a princess that can have all I wanted. Your word became the rules that I have to follow but later on you will let me decide on my own and tell me that you and Mama will be always there to support me. Ever since before I am a confessed Papa’s girl--- Where ever you are they will also find me there 
Papa, you are the ones who taught me the real things about life. You are the ones who taught me on becoming strong (since according to you crying won’t help me solve my problem). In my 19 years of existence, you became my mentor, my adviser and My Best Buddy (especially in sports), a good friend and My Dad. Happy Fathers Day Papa! I Love You so much <3 <3 <3

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

I Hate You!

Since that very first day I knew that I was into you, I can’t exactly count using my bare hands the times that I looked stupid, the times I hated myself, the times I cried and the times I was hurt by you.
Long time ago, I used to tell to everyone that crying for someone (specifically the opposite sex) would be the least thing I would do, but look at me now, here I am alone in a corner trying to ease the pain that you’ve cause simply by letting my tears run down my face . And certainly I really hated this idea—but this scenario will surely won’t be happening at this very moment if you didn’t draw closer to my path, thus, I hated you more than anyone else.
I hated you for letting me feel that I am special to you. I hated you for letting me feel that there’s something going on between the two of us, but most of all I really hate you for letting me fall for you without any assurance that you feel the same way too and giving me those false hope of yours.
Now, look at me everyone can surely call me “assuming” because of what you’ve done. But could I ever blame myself for assuming that there’s love between the two of us because of your actions and you’re “I LOVE YOUs”? Could I blame myself for hoping that someday there will be the two of us because of what you made me feel? Now, tell me could I blame myself for that?
Many times I tried to fight what I felt for you since I myself is tired of what I was doing to myself just to understand you—just to please you but since every time I make a move just to get rid of you, you yourself is also making a move to hinder me such as when I almost made it—I almost forget you then here you are again begging me to stay and claiming that I am only the one that you need. Crazy I am to think that what you’ve told me was all real. And I was also crazy and madly in-love with you then, thus I came back again to you hoping that this time around could be for real but my decision of coming back was totally erroneous because instead of being happy, I just let myself be hurt again.
Now, I know, I should have listen to my friends that you’re no good to me. I should have listened to them—I should have followed what they told me and If only I could turn back time—if only I could.
But it’s not yet late—I could still correct the mistakes that I have done and I assure you this time around there’s no turning back. This time around you can’t hold me back to you and let myself be hurt again because this time around—I know I will be happy and I know my friends just wanted the best for me and absolutely my friends don’t see you as a one.
So this time around, my goodbye is for real. I hate this but I need to. Yes, I really did love and fight for you but now I am running out of reason to fight for what I felt before since right now it’s not all about love—but it’s all about the hatred that I am strongly feel towards you right now.

Monday, March 8, 2010


“When you really love someone you must not expect any return of your actions and doings”
But what if you’re doing too much and anything for the person that you loved but then that person really cannot appreciate what you are doing, will you still stick with this saying?
I did not expect that I would also experience what did my friends experienced before.
Doing extra effort just to make the one they loved happy. Well, before, I used to laugh out loud when my friends will share the things that they have done in the name of love. Every time I do that my friends especially my best friend will told me that, “time will come you will also experienced what we are experiencing right now”. Instead of stopping myself from laughing but in return I will laugh loudly and tell them that “that the least thing that will happen to me”.
But unexpectedly the least thing that I expected to happen with me now really happened. Unexpectedly without my permission I fell in in-love. Yes, I did I fell in-love to the guy which I know cannot love me back, cannot give me the same feelings that I am offering to him.
Yes, I know it will hurt me and not just an ordinary wound but the scar will always remain not just in my mind but also in my bleeding heart.
I know I cannot teach my heart thus, I really need to accept that right now I am falling in-love with the wrong person. I need to accept that indeed I am falling in-love with my friend.
I really did not expect this to happen but what can I do I just wake up one day thinking of him, dreaming of him and in-love with him.

Monday, December 14, 2009


Akala ko ba ang pasko ay para sa pagbibigayan at pagmamahalan…

Ngunit ano itong nangyayari sa ating bayan…?!?

Imbes na pagmamahalan ay pagpapatayan…

Imbes na pagbibigayan ay pagsasarilinan…

Ano nga ba ang nangyayari sa atin? Sa ating bayan? Sa ating mga pinuno?

Paano pa ba natin mababago ang mga nangyayri sa ating bayan…

Imbes na sila ang mamuno sa bayan at gumawa ng kaayusan para sa bayan…

Sila pa itong nagiging pagulo at pa epal…

Imbes sila ang manita ng mga taong masasama…

Sila pa ngayon ang sinisita ng mga tao dahil sa mga masasama nilang Gawain…

Hai…tao nga naman…

Kung sino pa ang akala mong makakatulong sila pa itong mas tumutulong na madiin ng sobra-sobra an gating bansa…

Kung sino pa ang inaasahan sila pa ang magiging dahilan ng ating pagkaka dismaya…

"I Love You, Goodbye"

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

...hahai...walah rah...i can relate with this song...

...hahai...i love you goodbye jud...

Friday, December 11, 2009

Love Hurtz:[

Love hurts when you wait for so long and all of a sudden like the wind, they’re gone…

Love hurts when you gave it a second chance, but it didn't work out
now all you can do is sit while your heart screams and shout…

Love hurts when you've prayed and prayed but still he went away..

Love hurts when you try to figure how something so good, and why the hell went wrong..

Love hurts when you had so many talks to work things out and
realizing that it did no good, now you wondering what was the relationship all about..

Love hurts when you've cried and cried morning, noon, and till night

Love hurts when you think you could have only given it a second chance and try with all of your might…

Love hurts when you finally gave up and dare to love again
because the one you truly love made you feel like your entire life has come to an end…

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Love moves in mysterious way

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it
happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why
some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore that take the life out of
the experience.

Love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions
and commonalities that two people share. And just as life
itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too,
the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that
cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of lovewill come to you in full flower. Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happen to young people, they too often try to
grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a
gift that just as freely, moves away. When they fall out of
love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving,
they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather
than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. They
want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other
person no longer love them, or try to get their love to change,
thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again.

They blame their circumstances and say that if
they go far away and start a new life, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But
there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they
accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All
you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it
comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing,
then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person
who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it
poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.

There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long
without love, they understand love only as a need. They see
their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and
they begin to look at love as something that flows to them
rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as
their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need.
They cease to be someone who generates love and instead
become someone who seeks love. They forget that the
secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to
grow only by giving it away.

Remember this and keep it to your heart. Love has its time, its
own season, its own reason for coming and going. You
cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can
only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it
comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or
from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and
there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and
always will be a mystery. BE GLAD THAT IT CAME TO LIVE

If you keep you heart open, it will come again...